Settling

“We’re just going to find our daughter.”

And those were the words that stalled a church yesterday morning.  Words that shocked the system and stretched the muscle of your heart.  And the church braced for the coming storm.

The circumstances, at the time, seemed very grave.  One of our college students was missing, and out of contact with her parents and her friends, last seen at a concert this weekend.

When the news began to move through the hallways of our church building, people stopped and stared at each other with puzzled looks.  What could only be the appropriate response was the direction our leadership took.  The entire planned service was changed in an instant, and the morning would be spent in deep prayer.  Such a simple thing, but such a necessary response.

I was the first to offer a prayer, followed in time by all of our leaders.  And from the first prayer to the last, the tone changed to much more serious pleas.  My prayer was that our concerns and tears would prove unnecessary.  The last prayer offered was praise for her ultimate victory of heaven if she happened to not have survived the night.  All of our minds willingly followed that route, and wondered what life would be like if such a tragedy would occur.

Before I prayed, though, in the moments our minister announced to the church the circumstances, I felt a settling – something warm and controlled rested over the pews and the people, and it was something I have never experienced in a church before.  I am uncertain of it, even now, so much so that as I write, I wonder if I was the only one that felt something that seemed so powerful. 

But it was very forceful, a sure sign that at once, the entire church, and all in the assembly, would engage in something that may change the fabric of our church family.  Everyone believed the same thing, everyone felt the same emotions at the same time.  And everyone accepted a morning of convicted prayer with genuineness.

Churches resonate with differing opinions.  And they resonate with differing emotions and agendas.  Small groups, in any church, invariably visit the topics and themes of controversy and change, and do so at regular intervals.  But never, in my fifteen years of ministry, have I ever experienced something quite like what happened yesterday.  All agendas and complaints and emotions were cast aside, more than put aside, and five hundred people, children and students and grandparents and parents, believed, at once, that the true, defining moment of a church is not found in controversy and differing opinions, but in need and tragedy. 

Yesterday morning proved that a true church is the model of a family at its best.  The response taken would be taken again tomorrow, and again the next day, for anyone in such dire need.  I am blessed to know that where I worship, and where I work, is indeed such a very special place.  
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Our college student was found, missing only due to a minor misunderstanding, and all of our fears were put to rest.  But had it ended in a different way, I know that this group of people, connected by common beliefs and uncommon circumstances, would continue such a response.  I have no doubt we would.

Zen

I pulled the pink paperback out of my lunch cooler.

My back was to everyone else when I read it in the break room.  Usually filled with cowboys and farmer’s sons and guys needing gas money, I was the lone college boy.  My educational status was a sign of difference to these men, and I tried not to broach the subject often.  So when I was assigned to read a book with a pink cover, and my lunch break at this shipping plant was a good time to do so, I usually did it in stealth mode.

But the book did something to me.  Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance isn’t even a catchy title, but has become a strange philosophical book from the 1970’s, written by Robert Pirsig.  I had to read it for a college assignment, and gave it my best try.

I think I was too young to read something that was meant to be profound.  The long, thoughful passages were boring and senseless to me.  But I do remember two things from the book.  One, the characters in the book travel across the country on a motorcycle.  Two, a passage about assembling a barbecue grill.

And that second passage changed the way I thought.

The character was either assembling a grill, or recalling a time when he did assemble one.  And he embarked on a discussion about the assembly instructions, about how necessary they really were.  Could the grill be assembled another way?  Would it work the other way?  And would you have created something new if you departed from the instructions?  The assembly instructions included with the grill seemed to be so strict, so rigid, and the argument, as I remember it, was that those instructions attempted to steal any chance of original thinking. 

I remember thinking that the main character, Phaedrus, thought way too much about a barbeque grill.  And I remember that I shouldn’t be so overwhelmed by the recollections of a barbecue grill assembly.

But the point, if there is one, is still fairly profound, and the questions such a small passage present are worth answering:

Are there other ways to accomplish one task?  Is it worth incorporating other views, or should our accomplishments be limited to only the given instructions which have preceded us?  And when we refuse the opinions of others, are we closing the door on something better?  Or are really scared of other ways, other opinions, to accomplish one particular objective? 

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It is a now infamous, almost cultic book.  And that pink cover is gone.  It would be much easier to read it in that break room now.

Hero

The soldier on the right side of the photograph is the son of a very good friend.  He is stationed in the Middle East today, with no hope of returning home until much later this year.

I wasn’t expecting this.  This young man, this soldier, whose eyes have seen things most of us would only see in nightmares, is a little boy to me, a boy I love like a son.  My life is lived in relative peace, with little intrusions, but to awake and see this picture, to be confronted with the reality that this boy, this kid, is in the middle of something so awful … it made my heart hurt in places I could not even imagine. 

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Here are the words written by his mother, words only a mother could write.  And they are words any of us would write if it were our son in this photograph.  Be prepared to be moved.

This seems like a common picture, just like we see on the news every day.  But what makes it uncommon to me, is that the soldier on the right, with the gun in his LEFT hand, is my baby boy.  The one whose eyes dance, and whose laugh is like a song.  The one who colors with his left hand, and cocks his head to look out of the left side of his eyes.  Who, because his heart can’t contain all the joy God put in it, almost always has to laugh his thanks to God when he says the blessing.

With the news that four more US soldiers were killed by a roadside bomb last night in southern Baghdad, this picture makes my heart hurt.  I do know that as of this morning he is okay, but there will be four mothers and families who will get very different news this week.  Thank you for your prayers.  Please keep remembering them all.

Give

We watched an elderly gentleman clean the floor of a busy mall with his broom.

He had no expression on his face, he just completed his job, his task at hand.  Swarms of people passed him as though he was a ghost, and left their evidence behind on tables and around the legs of chairs.  He would fill the places they just emptied, and would remove their leftovers with indiscretion.  My wife and I watched him one afternoon, bored with mall walking. 

We had the crazy idea of doing something for this man.  And we did.  The look on his face was as indiscreet as his actions, for his eyes remained empty and void, programmed by his humble job to not accept any adulation.  

But I still walked away from feeling better, because I gave.

Giving is a very biblical concept, though now watered down with such an inept phrase as “random acts of kindness.”  The phrase, catchy as it sounds, just seems to promote kindness as a movement, the better side of a generally greedy and selfish culture.  But the very phrase itself reeks of greediness.  The movement belittles kindness to just one action at random intervals, generally promoted because the world has an enormous supply of people who can’t seem to find regular times to be kind.

I just happen to think that kindness is more than an act, closer to emotion than action, that seeps from your character in almost uncontrollable ways.  And I believe kindness is much more than a movement.  The world may lack kindness, but the last thing to encourage kindness would be some advertising and marketing ploy.  We have come to believe that twenty seconds of a selfless message, sandwiched between two advertising spots encouraging you to buy something for yourself, is enough to start some feel-good movement.  What these marketing ploys and slogans seem to be unable to grasp is the real, inherent goodness that genuine kindness makes you feel.

A survey from the University of British Columbia and the Harvard Business School proved such when they composed a study to find out if giving can actually make you happier.  They found that to be true.  Subjects were asked to spend money on someone else, even as little as $5, and the results were surprisingly surprising.  The test subjects felt happiness from true, purposeful kindness.  And this information is juxtaposed against rising salaries in recent years, which, according to other studies, has given people more wealth in their pockets, but left an emptiness in their souls.  Giving away your money — spending it on others — gives you the feeling that you can help others with what you have.  Which may even further indicate that we were born to serve, to help, to be kind, to give. 

The survey, though, does not appear to lend itself to random giving.  There is something more purposeful here.  True sacrificial giving requires much more thought than filling some kindness quota.  When you give through sacrifice, you give of something you otherwise would think you could never do without. 

The study isn’t meant to inspire a movement, or even embolden the current one.  But I think it validates principles found in Christianity, that giving, which is not a movement, and not a random act, is something that comes from deeper places.  And leads to much, much, deeper emotions.

Billion

I began the slow process of cleaning my other blog.

It’s like a different life, really.  I wasn’t expecting that.  Going back and reading some of the things I wrote, even one year ago, is like seeing pictures of total strangers, and thinking that you must know each and every person.  My thoughts have changed so much in a year. 

The thing about blogging, to me, is that whatever is said, whatever is written, must be of some importance.  The current number of blogs on the Internet is around 70 million.  True, people like me may have more than one blog, but 70 million blogs at least indicates that there are 70 million published opinions about something.  And with each of those blogs having numerous posts, the amount of published opinions could easily number in the billions.  So I am left questioning if anything I say or write is of any relative importance. 

I don’t think I want it to be important, for starters.  I am not trying to achieve some status with a blog.  I don’t know if what I write encourages people or not.  I do know that what I have written has angered some people, but again, that was never my attempt.  Do these words make people laugh?  Maybe.  At times.  Maybe they are supposed to.  But I don’t want to be so presumptuous to think that what I write could make any real significant difference.  It has occurred to me that people may want to know my opinions, but really, in an opinion-diluted world, what are those opinions worth?

These opinions probably have little value.  They do to me, at times.  Originally, I was going to move the other blog straight over, as is, including every single post.  But re-reading some of those posts just startled me.  I am not the same person that wrote some of those things, and I’m not sure if some of those posts have much of a place anymore.  I am not ashamed of what I have written, but some of those things were just written in a different time and for different purposes.  So some of them will not follow here.

And I am left wondering what is left in a world full of words.  As time passes, even this entry will no longer be relevant to me, and eventually, it will be deleted as well. 

In the meantime, I hope what I write interests you, at least.   I think I have more to say.  I think I do.

Memphis

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According to the Memphis Rock N Soul Museum, Memphis holds the record for the most references in recorded music, at around 900.  You can click here for a complete list.

By the way, the Rock N Soul Museum is a great place to visit.  One of the museum’s coolest exhibits is the original recording board from Sun Records, which was used to record Elvis Presley’s first record.  It is a technical piece of equipment, a hulk of a machine, and when I saw it, it greeted visitors as they entered the gallery of early Memphis rock and roll.  Enclosed in a glass case, it looked almost like an altar to me, the sacred piece of worship from which all singers and all songs in Memphis music history receive their power and existence.

It wasn’t lost upon me.  Just to stand by that one piece of equipment, a sound board with primitive knobs that registered the sound waves from what may be the most recognizable voice in the history of modern culture, is powerful in its own subtle way.  Of all the items in the exhibit, that one moved me the most.

New

It seems I have approached that time in my life when things just need to change.  Different furniture.  Different office.  Different priorities.  I guess change is a good thing. 

I’m just a little burned out on blogging right now.  Trying to figure out my purpose for all of this, anyway.  I’m not one just to rant about stuff, but stuff, from time to time, interests me, and maybe I can share the love with you.

So that’s why I’ve moved to another blog site.  No big deal, really, and this one isn’t much different than the other, but my outlook needs to change, and so do my familiar web spots.  And I apologize if you wait in anticipation day after day for something of substance.  My head is tired from thinking.  And blogging on the other site just offered nothing new. 

So, in hopes of inspiration, and in the current of changes – new blog, new look, new site.  We’ll see.

Hope you can adjust, all of my tens of readers.