Alone

It is assumed, as of now, that the new Mars lander will find no current life on the red planet.

This hulk of a machine, for all of it’s technological advancements, is sitting on the not-too-distant planet, right now, analyzing samples of Martian earth, for the possibility of organic material that may or may not have the capability to sustain life as we know it.

Aside from the scripted answers of why the new lander was launched, and landed, and is moving with such fanfare, the basic reason why we decided to send another space rover to Mars is still beyond me.  We have all but confirmed that life as we know it does not exist there.  This mission, among other, unknown and assuredly closed-door-reasons, is only to answer if life can be sustained there, or if life was ever sustained there. 

Of all of the planets in our solar system, it is the planet that is closest to the design and function of earth.  It is a relatively safe assumption that, given current temperatures and conditions, life as we know it can be sustained there with heavy amounts of supplies, and that is the stuff for science fiction to work out –bubble cities and daily transports of supplies, and all of the stuff of fantastic novels.  But the current reality is that life cannot, right now, be sustained. 

So maybe the cost, some $520 million, will allow us to find answers and build a catalog of Martian material that one day may point the way for building life on that planet.  But if that is the case, we are taking very small steps for a society that calls itself advanced.  The mission, according to human standards, is remarkable though.  With a chance of landing the craft at one in ten million, it has proved a success for those who devised and built the machine.  It took a journey of 420 million miles, and landed within 20 kilometers of its intended spot.  The machine unfolded itself, like something from a would-be-primitive cybernetic society, and sent the first pictures to earth, through a distance of 171 million miles, in just fifteen minutes.  I am anxious to hear the results of its search.

But truth be told, we are reaching for something that may not be there.

As for what our eyes, and telescopes can see, there is not another planet, save for our own solar system, that exists in the entire universe.  Educated guessers believe that surely, somewhere, conditions are favorable, and similar, to a planet like earth — one in such close proxemity to its neighboring star, and that it may be conducive to life.  But we have no proof.  No proof that life, at least life as we know it, exists somewhere else.

We are alone.  All 6 billion of us.

Andrew Watson, with the United Kingdom’s University of East Anglia in Norwich, believes that life as we know it does not exist anywhere else in the universe.  His opinion, based upon a complex mathematical solution, believes that no other planet could possibly have all of the complex life-sustaining elements and situations found on earth.

Life may not, and probably does not, exist anywhere else.  What is more frightening, though, is what may lie beyond what we can see.  Our universe has a known diameter of 28 billion light years.  But what is beyond that horizon?  And do these questions even matter?

Backing away from earth, much like moving away from a school globe, gives us all a fair amount of perspective.  We are petty.  Puny.  Or special, depending on your take.  Either what we do really does not matter, or what we do matters most, for we are only one of 6 billion complex lifeforms in the entire known universe.  But even then, what we do, the leaders we elect, the music we hear or play, and the words we speak, are isolated, empty, when they float into space.  Who, or what, is out there to hear?

There is a great scene in the movie Titanic, when director James Cameron has spent much of the movie telling the personal story of two central characters on a doomed passage.  When the collision happens, and chaos erupts on board, we are taken into that journey.  And in the midst of that emotion, Cameron pulls the camera angle back, and shows the ship from the sky.  It looks like a tiny set of lights in a vastness of darkness.  No one hears their cries, for they are alone.  All of their desires, their wants, their selfish, survival needs are petty to their surroundings.  And though the story of Jack and Rose is touching, it matters only to Rose and her family, and no one else. 

So if we are alone, and no other lifeforms are present anywhere else, then the concept of faith, suddenly, becomes a much bigger trigger.  God created only us in this vast universe.  And, above our sky, there is no physical, tangible safety.  And (if you take some liberties with the hardcore biblical approach), if life does exist outside of our known universe, then it must be made in the image of God.  Right?

All of this redefines my concept of faith, for faith no longer is just having some emotional strength to make it through any given day.  

Faith is a reliance that the world will turn as it should, especially if it is the only world known to us.  That people are placed where they should be, on a lonely planet.  That situations never happen by chance, and that a concept such as chanced evolution could not possibly be right.  That luck does not, nor ever has existed, and that our lives are lived somewhere between destiny and our own freedom to choose.  And that loneliness is much bigger, much more defined, than an empty house, for that empty house is one of but a few billion known in the entire universe.  We haven’t really felt true loneliness.  Maybe ever.  But these things, these concepts of space and time, to us, are truly secret things. 

But faith has never seemed so concrete.  Never.

Calling

It was midnight.  Little sleep.  College life.  A long distance relationship.  Uncertainity.

I awoke, really, with a realization.  A small little voice.  A leaning, really, to change my eventual career choice to ministry. 

It felt natural.  It really did.  Almost like, if I had not listened to that voice, I would have spent a few years running from, and searching for, that home-sweet-home feeling.

A change in my undergraduate major meant the addition of an extra semester at a university that was a little pricey.  Just a minor bump in the road.  Minor.  And my wife, not once, ever doubted that the voice I heard was the voice for her and the family we would eventually be given.

Within that year, I was again called, this time on the phone, to come preach at a small church not an hour’s drive away.  A weekend job turned into my first job after college.  My wife and I moved to the small town, into the parsonage, and began what, to this day, was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life.  That a church filled with old souls would listen to the words and teaching of a twenty-something is still tough to grasp, and only explained as though God gave them a generous amount of patience. 

The next call was a printed publication, an advertisement from a church with the need of a youth minister.  From the very first conversation, my wife and I both knew we would be moving.  God was working and leaning again, and his voice spoke through the five members of a search committee.  We moved, and I began a journey that is still quite the ride.

I received some papers this week, a list of some early lessons I wrote for our leaders of our student small groups.  They were deep, and naive, and green.  But God seemingly blessed those words, those thoughts.  And though those words were written for different leaders and different students, I attend the continued evolution of those groups now, on Wednesday nights, and though I take no credit at all for what I see, the exprience is beyond words.  Lots of students.  Lots of energy.  Lots of passionate leaders with a great ability to take the words in the lessons I now write and maneuver them, mold them, into a discussion that is always just right for the students they are teaching.

I go to my office during the week, and marvel at times that I have not lost any passion for student ministry.  I’ve been given the slightest of gifts that have kept me one step ahead of the cultural pace that feeds on the energy of teenagers.  God has guided my hands, my eyes, my thoughts, to find and seek ideas for programs, material for our curriculum, and the technological learning to accomodate the eyes and the time of a teenager.  I feel as though I am the one that has learned the most, and the journey I take with God is still one of humility.  I do not know what I am doing, even to this day, but expect God to direct where we can and want to be. 

He gave me access, early in my years here, to teach at the private school associated with our church.  He used those years, those rough and tough years, to teach me more things, newer things, about the broader base of student ministries.  He now allows me to teach at the local college, where my classes are always filled with high school students taking collegiate courses.  Teaching on the collegiate level has given me vision into the emerging and future world of the students involved in our ministry, and has also introduced me to the most current and successful teaching models for a classroom filled with teenagers and older adults in varying demographics.  It has also allowed me to be a current voice in the wider environment in our neighboring cities.  I am known as their teacher at college, and the youth minister at the church where their friends attend.  The doors that have opened for me in those classroom experiences are invaluable.

All of this is amazing to me.  All of it.  I am at a unique point (probably because of a two week break) where reflection is the order of the day.  And I am thankful to look back, after almost ten years in student ministry, and see the guiding, and most certainly, the providential hand of God. 

I had a thought, when I was a teenager, involved in the youth ministry of my church, that one day, maybe, I would be given the opportunity to lead and teach students.  Those thoughts still haunt my mind, for they were thoughts born of a certain teenage selfishness that plagues all of us during those years.  I ran from those thoughts early into college, with ideas of making my career in other things.  But God called.  And I had no choice but to listen.  My ministry path would lead from preaching, where I thought God may have obviously gifted me, to a ministry that needed the use of other gifts, ones I believed I did not have, and have spent the better part of the past decade learning. 

I am truly grateful for this path.  I realize the gifts I have are only for the moment I need them.  And there are times, like now, that I believe I could do this for the rest of my life.  I make mistakes, for everyone on a learning path is bound to stumble, but God has given me a church, again, with an abundance of patience.  They allow me and trust me with what I believe to be the most pressing ministry in any church.  It is a thing of God.  It truly is.

Student ministry is my calling.  My passion.  Moments teaching students, messaging students, meeting students, seeing students, are moments that are given by God.  And how thankful I am that He is most patient.  He is still, even after all these years, still working on me, preparing me for the next day, the next moment, and the next season, giving me what I need, when I need it.  It is truly, truly, a calling.

Artistry

How tough it was to leave a place like this …

Returned

I am home again from paradise.

A few days on the edge of the world will do anyone some good.  Listening to the waves.  Reading good books.  Playing with the kids.  Doing all the things I want to do every day, and some of the things I want to do better every day.

Anyway, my mind is still a thousand miles from here, and I am anxious to see what comes from there in the next few days.  It is very, very tough to return to normal after a long and much needed break. 

This time, though, I’m pondering how to change normal into something that looks more like a small little beach house and a simpler life.

Packaged

I ran across a book review today.

The sentiments in this review, which claim to generally summarize the objective of author Daniel Radosh, are things with which I generally struggle in ministry to students.  Specifically, the review seeks to show the irony of a separate culture for Christian merchandising, and how that “separate” culture looks and feels much like all things secular.  The book seems to expose some very alarming conclusions that seem very, very true, and, at the same time, very, very challenging.

For me, the question is how to use culturally accepted mediums when teaching the message of Christ.  I would even consider myself a youth minister that uses media to my advantage, (hopefully) without forsaking intimacy in communication, because I believe that students are generally saturated in a culture that uses media to the alarming disadvantage of a teenager.  I really, truly believe that I have an obligation to level the playing field when talking to students.  But then, how much is too much?

A segment of popular culture has embraced the so-called needs of younger Americans to have something of faith that looks and appears to be culturally accepted, something I call packaged faith.  A rather large consumer market offers this packaged faiththrough items that are relatively inexpensive.

And not to say that some of those corners are bad, but the author seems to argue that those who delve so deep in such tidy, commercialized Christian elements are privy to the dilution of something so holy and sacred.

I’ve ordered the book, based upon this review.  I thought I would post this review here, in its entirety, to hopefully engage your mind a little.
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“Pop Goes Christianity:  The Deep Contradictions of Christian Popular Culture”
By Hanna Rosin
Original post found here, on slate.com.

One night, a couple of years ago, I walked in on a group of evangelical college boys sitting on a bed watching The Daily Show.  I felt alarmed, and embarrassed, as if I had caught them [doing something they shouldn't be], … or something else they had to be shielded from.  Jon Stewart, after all, spends at least one-quarter of his show making fun of people like them.  But they eagerly invited me in.  I soon learned that they watched the show ever night it was on, finals or no finals.  So strong was their devotion to Jon Stewart that I was tempted to ask:  If Jesus came back on a Tuesday night at 11, would you get off the bed?

Over time, I came to understand this as a symptom of a larger phenomenon: evangelicals’ deeply neurotic relationship with popular culture. Whether or not they were the butt of all of Stewart’s jokes seemed irrelevant to them. The point was that the high priest of political comedy spent a lot of time thinking about them. Once, after I’d met Jon Stewart, they all crowded around and asked the same question: What does he really think of us?

At this point in history, American evangelicals resemble the Israelites at various dangerous moments in the Old Testament: They are blending into the surrounding heathen culture, and having ever more trouble figuring out where it ends and they begin. In politics, and in business, they’ve mostly gone ahead and joined the existing networks. With pop culture, they’ve instead created their own enormous “parallel universe,” as Daniel Radosh calls it in his rich exploration of the realm, Rapture Ready! A Christian can now buy books, movies, music—and anything else lowbrow to middlebrow—tailor-made for his or her sensibilities. Worried that American popular culture leads people—and especially teenagers—astray, the Christian version is designed to satisfy all the same needs in a cleaner form.

The problem is that purity boundaries are hard to police in the Internet age. Show a kid a Christian comedian, and soon he’s likely to discover that the guy is a pale imitation of this much funnier guy—Jon Stewart—who’s not a Christian at all, and doesn’t even like Christians. Which might then lead to a whole new set of anxieties, such as: Why are Christians so constitutionally unfunny? And, what is the point of Christian culture, anyway?

In the ’80s, Christians were known as the boycotters, refusing to see movies or buy products that offended them. They felt about commercial culture much the way a Marxist might: that it was a decadent glorification of money and meaningless human relationships. Then, sometime during the ’90s, when conservative evangelicals started coming out of their shells, they took a different tack. The boycotters became coopters and embarked on the curious quest to enlist America’s crassest material culture in the service of spiritual growth.

Most non-Christians are aware that there is something called Christian rock. We’ve all had the slightly unsettling experience of pausing the car radio on a pleasant, unfamiliar ballad until we realized … Ahhh. That’s not her boyfriend she’s mooning over!But few of us have any idea of how truly extensive this so-called subculture is. Reading Radosh’s book is like coming across another planet hidden somewhere on Earth where everything is just exactly like it is here except blue or made out of plastic. Every American pop phenomenon has its Christian equivalent, no matter how improbable. And Radosh seems to have experienced them all.

At a Christian retail show Radosh attends, there are rip-off trinkets of every kind—a Christian version of My Little Pony and the mood ring and the boardwalk T-shirt (“Friends don’t let friends go to hell”). There is Christian Harlequin and Christian chick lit and Bibleman, hero of spiritual warfare. There are Christian raves and Christian rappers and Christian techno, which is somehow more Christian even though there are no words. There are Christian comedians who put on a Christian version of Punk’d, called Prank 3:16. There are Christian sex-advice sites.  There’s a Christian planetarium, telling you the true age of the universe, and my personal favorite—Christian professional wrestling, where, by the last round, “Outlaw” Todd Zane sees the beauty of salvation.

At some point, Radosh asks the obvious question: Didn’t Jesus chase the money changers out of the temple? In other words, isn’t there something wrong with so thoroughly commercializing all aspects of faith? For this, the Christian pop-culture industry has a ready answer. Evangelizing and commercializing have much in common. In the “spiritual marketplace” (as it’s called), Christianity is a brand that seeks to dominate. Like Coke, it wants to hold onto its followers and also win over new converts. As with advertisers, the most important audience is young people and teenagers, who are generally brand loyalists. Hence, Bibleman and Christian rock are the spiritual equivalent of New Coke. Christian trinkets—a WWJD bracelet, a “God is my DJ” T-shirt—function more like Coca-Cola T-shirts or those cute stuffed polar bears. They telegraph to the community that the wearer is a proud Christian and that this is a cool thing to be—which should, in theory, invite eager curiosity.

Straightforward, if somewhat crude, merchandizing so far. But there is also another level of questions, which the creators of Christian culture have a much harder time answering: What does commercializing do to the substance of belief, and what does an infusion of belief do to the product? When you make loving Christ sound just like loving your boyfriend, you can do damage to both your faith and your ballad. That’s true when you create a sanitized version of bands like Nirvana or artists like Jay-Z, too: You shoehorn a message that’s essentially about obeying authority into a genre that’s rebellious and nihilistic, and the result can be ugly, fake, or just limp.

The Christian rockers Radosh interviews are always torn between the pressure not to lead their young audience astray and the drive to make good music. Mark Allan Powell, a professor who teaches a class on contemporary Christian music at Trinity Lutheran Seminary, describes the predicament for Radosh: Imagine the Good Rubber Tire Co. came out with an awesome rock song that just happened to be about tires. Musicians wouldn’t want to play it because they’d think, “We’re being used,” Powell explains. Creative Christian types find themselves in a similar bind: They want to make good, authentic music. But they are also enlisted in a specific mission which confines their art.

The entertainers in Radosh’s book complain about watchdog groups that count the number of times a song mentions Jesus or about the lockstep political agenda a Christian audience expects. They complain about promoting an “adolescent theology” of Christian rock, as one calls it, where they “just can’t get over how darned cool it was that Jesus sacrificed himself.” In his interview with Radosh, Powell pulled out an imitation of a 1982 New Wave pop song with the lyrics; “You’ll have to excuse us/ We’re in love with Jesus.” This, he explained, was the equivalent of a black-velvet painting of Elvis. Only it’s more offensive, because it’s asking the listener to base his whole life around an insipid message and terrible quality music.

For faith, the results can be dangerous. A young Christian can get the idea that her religion is a tinny, desperate thing that can’t compete with the secular culture. A Christian friend who’d grown up totally sheltered once wrote to me that the first time he heard a Top 40 station he was horrified, and not because of the racy lyrics: “Suddenly, my lifelong suspicions became crystal clear,” he wrote. “Christian subculture was nothing but a commercialized rip-off of the mainstream, done with wretched quality and an apocryphal insistence on the sanitization of reality.”

Striking a balance between reverence and hip relevance can be a near-impossible feat. Christian comedians, for example, border on subversive, especially when making fun of themselves. In one episode of Prank 3:16, the pranksters fake the Rapture and throw their victim into a panic because she’s afraid she’s been left behind. With true comedic flair, they’re flirting with opposition and doubt, and even cruelty. But “the Christian is supposed to be secure in the loving hand of the almighty God,” one of them tells Radosh. So, even if they don’t sanitize, they’re afraid to step over into the brutal, dirty truth comedy thrives on.

The new generation of Christians is likely to be a different kind of audience. Raised on iPods and downloadable music, they find it difficult truly to commit to the idea of a separate Christian pop culture. They might watch Jon Stewart or Pulp Fiction and also listen to the Christian band Jars of Clay, assuming the next album is any good. They are much more critical consumers and excellent spotters of schlock. The creators of Christian pop culture may just adapt and ease up on the Jesus-per-minute count, and artistic quality might show some improvement. But in my experience, where young souls are at stake, Christian creators tend to balk. It’s always been a stretch to defend Christian pop culture as the path to eternal salvation. Now, they may have to face up to the fact that it’s more like an eternal oxymoron.

Release

I was reminded again this week of the ruined television.

It sat in the corner of the house, like a coffin in a dark viewing room.  It was bought for thousands of dollars, but when the waters came and rose and filled the house like an empty bowl, it went to ruin.  The house was submerged in thirty minutes, and the television, along with everything else, would forever be useless.

We charged into the house, trepid, intimidated, frightened.  Debris lined the floor, and our job was to remove it from the house just outside of New Orleans.  Katrina did her worse, and there were few to provide relief. 

Twice we ventured to the coast to assist in the efforts.  I was reminded of those trips this week when watching a slanted program on the History Channel about Katrina and New Orleans, and the thousands of possibilities for future storms.  The program wanted to lean to the side of rising global temperatures as the cause of major hurricanes, and whether that is true or not is irrelevant to me.  Katrina was much bigger than the supposed rise in temps. 

I took some pictures.  Take a look.

 

These two trips changed my life.  It is a tough thing to walk into a home, once filled with possessions of such great value and importance and cost, and then to see these things destroyed.  I am grateful for what I have, for what I own, but what I learned, in the end, is that I am the one that really assigns value.  Outside of my home, the things I own would mean very little. 

And that is a great starting point for release and freedom.